January 20, 2019February 9, 2019 Allison

Mistake: Believing I did all of this!

Books To Read, Mistakes, Mom Tips

When I started this blog and wrote my “About Me” page, I decided if this blog was going to help others, it was going to be because I was going to be authentic, share my knowledge, my victories and my disappointments. In staying true to that I’m going to talk about being “humbled”.

If I told you that I grew up very humble and of very modest means…that would probably be an understatement. I grew up way below the poverty level and often envious of people who had more than me. Not more like a brand new car or huge house, like basic necessities more.

But from those very humble beginings I think a fire was lit in me to do more, be more, and have more in every sense of the word. A better mother, great wife, financially comfortable, amazing friend, greatly educated and well traveled.

Most of the items above I’m still working on and thankfully have come to realize that the process may never end…but I feel pretty accomplished too.

As I was continuing through life, I was often complimented on my accomplishments, had other single mom’s and entrepreneurs say “I don’t know how you do it,” and “You are amazing!” All of that felt really good! I mean why shouldn’t I get accolades for all that I did to get where I am?

Then came some hardships…we’ll probably talk about them individually in other posts, but let’s just say injury, illness, financial worries, ended relationships, and some straight up stomach punches all within a 2 year period left me feeling face down, defeated and unable to even comprehend what a bounce back now would look like. The anxiety and fear was so overwhelming that it was almost debilitating….almost.

One day I ran across a FB video from Pastor Steven Furtick. I’d never heard of him before and honestly have no idea how he even ended up in my feed but I was supposed to see it…that message was meant specifically for me!

That was when I realized that “I” hadn’t done all of this, built all of this, or made all of this happen. It was by the Grace of God and He is who deserved all of the accolades. I realized that I needed to be humble and understand that it was God who brought me this far, God who will pick me up and lead me into the future. And that is when I was led to strengthen my relationship with Jesus and this book.

I’m not sure where you are in your faith walk, if you’re feeling defeated or if you are on top of the world right now. But this book has been a guide to understanding and deepening my faith in God and all of the amazing things he wants to do in my life. I just needed to step out of the way a little bit and step into Him. What made me pick this particular book up? The subtitle of course…”what happens when you dare to ask God for the impossible”. Well I was sure I needed a miracle in my life and if this book was a written course on how to do it I was going to sit down and read every word the first night. I didn’t of course…it too is a process, but it has been an amazing blessing as I’ve worked through it.

When I read this portion of the book I quickly realized it went full circle, back to the video and message about my anxiety and my past lack of humbleness.

“circumcision of the heart” …”involves God cutting away everything in our lives that doesn’t bring glory to him. Stripping away our pride and self-reliance. Teaching us to trust in Him alone.”

Steven Furtick, Sun Stand Still

My pride and my self-reliance have certainly been stripped away, and trust me the process wasn’t fun. But the other side is full of more hope than ever before. Order the book below! I hope you enjoy it as much as I have!